H2O from the sky

My smile turned into a frown as I opened the door. All this time when I was in safe confines of four walls, it had decided to take a nap and now when I was ready to go, it had woken up from the slumber. I cried out aloud, " Why does it have to rain?". Even a first standard student can write a one page answer on it. And one such first standard kid was standing rite next to me: my nephew. Thank god he didn't start with that answer. But rather asked me innocently, "Don't u like rain?I just love it."

I just looked at him. His awe at this natural phenomenon clearly reflected in his eyes. Even I had loved rain years ago, just like him....going through the puddles that got created thanks to our poor roads. Yes, I surely had loved rain. So when did I really start to hate it. Was it when I got the scolding for spoiling the school socks and shoes for (of course).....wading through the water. No it was not then. Next time I was careful not do it in front of my watchful parents..... Then it must have been when my not-so waterproof bag got wet, and the notebooks having my writing in Ink for the first time got washed away. Yes, I did feel bad for it. But it was surely not then.....Oh, then it must have been when I missed the school picnic because of falling sick coz of getting wet in rain the previous day. May be it was then......or was it when I got late for my college exams coz of it. I don' know. But I remember cursing it when my new dress got spoiled on my way to office, due to - You know who.

I looked at my nephew again. Surely love it while you can. Coz I know u'll reach my stage when you don't know whether you like it or not. Suddenly I heard my aunt behind me, "What r u cribbing about? You r wearing a jacket and have an umbrella. Why shudn't it rain? Our lakes and reserviors need to fill....Else we wud have water cuts....What about poor farmers...." - The one page answer I talked about had begun.

To be or not to be

'Genius is always uncertain'.....This was actually a status msg of one my friends.Don't know where he picked that from or was it his own creation.Irony is that I stumbled upon it when I was in two minds about some trivial issue. Doesn' t that happen too often? It isn't something that would have a huge impact on r life or work or actually even the next day or hour itself. But still we spend so much time taking the decision regarding it. But reading that quote suddenly made me feel better. Well.....I have no misconceptions of me being a Genius or converse of the quote being true, but i think what relieved me was just an assurance that its not just me but even the genius who can be uncertain.

Hardly had I sunk into this relief when i realised something else; I was being taken in by just 'some' quote. I don't know who wrote it or what the context of the quote was, and here was I getting carried away by it. May be it was just a passing thought of a frustated person caught in an uncertain situation like me. Or may be it was a defence mechanism of an eternally confused person who unlike me had misconception of being a Genius. So i decided to examine each and every genius I knew mentally. But the problem is I find most of the people so sure of the decisions that they are taking irrespective of the whether they are a genius or not. Well, may be it is just that they seem very sure just like I may to some others. But its only I myself (and now whoever will read this blog) who am aware of the foolish battles going on in the mind every now and then.
I suddenly remembered the issue that I had on hand(the one I mentioned at the start). I realised that I was in a dilemna coz I had a choice. If i hadn't had this choice I wud have been peaceful but probably unhappy. Wasn't it the choice that I had always wanted? I took a decision and relaxed.
May be Genius is just the one who sees lots of options or choices for every situation and hence is uncertain. Now I am actually pondering on whether to post this blog or not. Does it hold ne sense or not?Questions galore....But b4 I can have an argument with myself I see the name of my blog page: 'Be what u want to be."
So here it is....